Well well well,
I'm not absolutely tired of keeping journal fresh, but I've been doing so much stuff lately such as newsletter, dance-team newsletter, keeping track with works and other projects. I'm very busy right now.

Recently, God challenges me to love people. There are many kind of people that I really want to ignore them, but I'm guilty by not treating them nicely as they are my brothers and sisters. Love, love, love that can cover everything. I need to remember it and practice it so that it will become my character.

Just wanna keep it short and clear!
Gade

Hey, I'm just not sure how much I wanna pour out about me right now! It's kinda hard time to find where I'm at with God since it has been busy with serving in 2 ministries and house sitting somewhere away from where I work. I got upset easily with people who've been annoying me both with words and actions. However, today I just felt my limit of being good and nice will be torn down somehow, but God rescues me on time. There was a sharing about our attitude toward our beloved brother and sister who falls in sin. We usually judge them, and we try to hide our problem or try to not getting caught when we're sin because it's shameful to stand up and confess our sin to others or we may want to blame people who fall in sin. However, God's love is different from what I'm responding to people. I'm quickly judge them and want to stay away from them, and I admit that it's hard to love people or forgive or accept them. God show me just a great example of Jesus, and I believe God did something in our heart to people in Ram II base here. Something that we call the power of the perfect love, and it will cast out the fear, and the love that make us understand about his mercy so that we may change from the inside out. It's cool that I just once again meditate on it..

Thanks to God for his teaching me, and I can't wait to spend a moment in a quiet place with him alone! God is good! His kindness, goodness and mercy will lead us to repentance.

Blessings,
Gade

Hey, I've been away from keeping my journal up to date, and I don't want to blame any of works because it just me don't try to make it happen =(...

However, my life is doing ok. I'm not been healthy enough for both physical and spiritual way. I don't eat much, and I don't pursue my workout schedule at all. I've been lay back from truly seeking God in my devotional. I put up with my friend to have devotional time together, and I've leading him to grow in God, but I felt like I have no more to give him since I'm so dry and hardly keeping my excitement life with the Lord. I found myself forcing itself to go beyond my strength, and I felt 2 ways: one is that I show my honest hunger for God, but in the other hand, I just pretend that I can do it!! Well, don't be confused like I'm right now=)


God's challenging me to be endure and persevere toward his goal. I got so many attractions from doing what I suppose doing. Once is my sin which keep holding me back, and the second one is my behavior of addicted stuff like Korean series, noble reading, and doing crazy thing when I get bored. God corrected me to live in Holy life, and don't treat it like Esau did with the right of being the Oldest son when he treated it with only one meal. I admit that there are many time I fall in temptation, and I try to get up on my feet many time, but over and over that I fall and try to get up. So I truly need prayers to have faith that Jesus would keep me holy as his bridge. Please keep praying for me that I'll overcome my weaknesses. The more I'm ministering to other people, the more I'm struggling with my own thing. And I wanna live out freely with hope.

I'm trying to be endure and persevere, please pray for me. Thank you so much.

Blessings,
Gade

Dear all,

A short message to let you know that I'm clam down from what is freaking me out right now. I suppose to be up in ChiangMai for the Asia Pacific Conference for performing and as translator. Usually, we got budget from people who run the Conference to help us, but in this time there is no money at all. I already trained some dancers to dance in my piece, and when I got an email saying there is no budget for our transportation and housing.. I just don't know how to respond to this email. However, I'm not freaking out that our team can't perform as a Thai team since we got invitation. I'm going to do my best with hope, and I'll do it until to the end and wait to see God moves among us.. It's a big challenge, but I'm ready for it!!!! Also, pray for me to be in the realistic world as well, there may be time of sacrificing, and there can be a time of stand for one another. Who knows, God may want to change our perspective of dancers in my team.. Please pray that I'll hear God's word carefully.. Praise God for who he is.. The provider, the faithful one..

I'm doing alright recently. Still have fun with job in the office and hanging out with my old friends who came to visit me in Bangkok.

Hey,

I'm off from the office in about a week and half, and I'm joining the prayer team to go down South of Thailand. We want to pray according for God has showing us, and we want to be part of this battle for Thai people. Please pray that we'll travel safe, and we will be interceding for the LOST... May God provide the divine appointment -) I'm so exciting to go, and I can't wait to join with journey!

Last Saturday one of my good friend was getting marriage, and I post up a picture here, and also one of my very close friend is getting marriage in this weekend, so I'm going to be there for them.. Yay!!

I don't really know where I should beging with this update, since I've been through lots of thing,and each thing takes much of time to share. I completely discourage with friendship when we are on our flesh desire. Also, I'm searching for God's heart of seeing myself in his perspective and other people. I need the light to shine on me and take me to the right way, and I want that light to shine from inside out as I'm living for Christ.

God has been faithful to me. Although I'm struggling to trust for his provision, he kindly show me what he wants me to do. My support money reduces more than 2000 baht ($55), and I had many idea come through my mind, and I suppose to raise support, but I felt God challenges me to take this opportunity to bless the fellow staff who face the same thing like me and pray for one other. I have such peaceful heart to trust that he will make a way for me to receive enough support.

I've seen division among our family, and I really need to fight for the peace by doing the spiritual warfare and seek to understand and comfort others. I'm looking to my heart, and from now on I want to make it right before God and others. Please please please keep praying for me.

Blessings & much love..
Gade

What has been in my heart recently is stiring up in me to reach out to the lost....And I kinda question myself how I reach to them?

Today I experience a great confusion of lies that people have heard and believed, and I just curious what I suppose to do.. There is an uncle who sits next to the YWAM office everyday, for his business takes place underneath YWAM building. Also, today was group came in our Soi to give away some tracks that I don't know what is about. I walked in today, and I felt like God challenges me to spend time talking to this uncle whom I greet him everytime I see him. So I walked in, and he said he got something to give it to me. When I checked out the tracks, I'm pretty sure that it's not about Christianity, but it's similar, too. I asked some questions, and I found out that uncle read through it already. So I told him to not believe in it, but he asked some questions about Christ. I told him that Jesus is the only way to go to heaven, and he told me different story about Christ... He doesn't believe that there is God in this universe, and he mess up the story of Christ to be someone else that I never heard about.. It hurts because he doesn't know the truth, and I don't know where he got this information from. The enemies works so hard to lie to him, and his eyes, ear, mind, and heart are completely shut for the truth, for he hold what he knew as the truth.

One thing I found out in my relationship with God is that God loves him still.. I felt just a glimpe of his grieve, but his love never grown weary for that uncle.. When I came in my office and pray for this uncle.. My mind was full of ways to avoid this uncle since he didn't want to believe what I believe, and I thought there is no business to deal with him..But God turns my thought upside down, for he wants me to keep loving with guy and give him help anytime that I have opportunity..My respond to God is about loving this man, and I have to hold on to God to reveal his truth to me so that I can live it out. . . . . . . I'm thankful to God that he is with me, and he kindly show me how to walk in this situation.. Here what I wanna share and remind myself of how deep of my Father love..

The Narrow Gate to HEAVEN. . . .

I liked the truth of Luke 19:1-10, story of Jesus and Zacchaeus. Maybe many people have read this passages, and God reveals in different thing, and God revealed me whose heart that he is looking for. Several months in Montana, I completely trust and have faith in God, but I'm lacking of the knowledge of God. In the other hand, I just didn't give my time to God for getting to know him better. Zacchaeus' heart was about to see Jesus, and he climbed up on the tree because he was seeking Jesus. God is faithful of who he is, so Jesus came to Zacchaeus, and he even more surprised Zacchaeus for going to Zacchaeus' house. Then I've seen how soft of Zacchaeus' heart when Jesus came to him as a friend who doesn't care what a sinner he is, so he repented with the action of faith, and Jesus revealed his love and salvation to him. I hope that I would be like Zacchaeus,for I quickly turn to God many times when I have sin, but it was because I felt guilty. At this time what I've learned through this passage is that God requires me a heart of hunger to see Jesus personally so that he would make me to absolutely repentant.

I listened to a song calls "Mighty to save" by Hillsongs church in Aus, and I love the word "Author of Salvation".. . . . . How wonderful that I have Jesus as a Author of Salvation who seeks for me, and who will lead me to worship him. I remembered myself dance in worship time for a couple time, and before I got to do that I refused to dance because I knew that I didn't have a right attitude. But God did break through, so I just love for being there and dance freely in worship for him. Because I know that he is worthy for me to be obey him and glorify his name... This is my love for him, my God who accept my messyness, and he never turned away from me, when I call for him. He is bigger than I can think of, and his imaginations are incredible.






This is a couple from my Chicago trip... I like them so much because they have been showing me a Jesus' heart for his people. I miss them so much =) By the way, I miss all of people back in Thailand and other places as well. I used to pity on myself of my personal issue, and I also can't make any relationship even deeper with anyone. This is the cost I have to pay, and through this moment I do believe God prepares me for something ahead. I know that I never been alone, but sometimes I need people whom I knew and trust. . Now I'm tired of building trust in new people whom I'm going to leave them again. Anyway, this is how I feel. . . . and I hope that I'll get over it sometimes.

It was a very crazy time for me in the school, and I just finished the 1st quarter which took about 3 months long in School of Dance Studies.. Imagine a Thai girl who absolutely didn't know much about the Western dances, and she has tried to catch up with many new thing in the school, and in the same time she has to deal with the 2nd language of lecture studies and technique classes. Many time I was overwhelmed with enotional, and I found out myself listen to the lairs. The school is tough, but I have came very far. Last week was the most tough week of mine when I thought through 2 final exams, turning in our timeline project, and to be understudy in Steve Rooks' peice for the whole week. I must confess that I have a hard time in memorize the dance history lectures, I knew that I undestood some, but when I came out from the class, everything was gone! I turned my paper works in, and I got a good grade on it, but I didn't really remember what I did. . . When I sit on the exam time, I was struggling that I have no answer for the test. Our staffs have been a big helpful to us, but still I didn't do my part very well.. I came to the part that I'm so frustated and discouraged because I have no time on studying to make myself understand very clear about the class and studying. Then a couple missionary who had led me to Christ in the past give me a wisdom words that my God never gave such a heavy burden to me, he knows deeply how much I can bear, and he tursts in me, so it brought me back to humble myself and believe in his promise. God is so good to comfort me again when I loose my mind somewhere about who God is.

I'm having a two weeks break from school, so right now I'm in Chicago, but before I got in Chicago I had to wait for a day in the airport to get in the sirplane, I found myself praying to God that I'm letting him to do his work in me, I want to go to Chicago, but I got the stand by ticket, if he wants me to go to Chicago in that day,I'll go by faith. I ended up that day by calling somebody that I never known to pick me up from the airport in Missoula coz I couldn't make it. It's akeward for me, but God brought me to have a new friend who used to be student in the same school that I'm doing right now. We have such a good time, and I felt peace inside as I knew God is doing something in me. Then I went back to the airport again in a very early morning to get in the morning flight, and at this time I really felt God will take me out from Missoula, and it happened. I got to Chicago, but nobody knew that I was coming, my friend were at Church, so I called, and I didn't have much coins to make any other call, so I just only left a message in that calling and waited patiently at the airport with hope for someone to pick me up. It went couple hour, and nobody showed up, so I prayed again by faith. In next 15 mins my friend whom I left message in his phone showed up, and I got to go with him. I had such a wonderful time with them, and I'm thanksful to God for everything. I was nervous to travel alone,and this time was a big challenge for me, and I don't want to do it in the 1st time, but God is taking a good care of me, and he is with me.. That's wonderful... I've learned so much during these two days..

I'm looking forward for the next quarter of school, I hope that I'll learned from God so much more, and I'll hold my focus on him very well. Will get on update before the Christmas!! (hope so)

Blessings,
Kate

In the dance school

Another time of learning a new thing which I first was frustated so much, and when I reached to the 4th week of the school, I just found out there is more fun to find out what I really like. This week has been an awesome week for me as we were studying Modern dance with Jolene, the founder of the School Of Dance Studies in Montana. I was so amazed when she had me on her piece, but I graded myself very low on this kind of dance because I hadn't take any class, so God worked through her to get me come across of my natural abilities. Right now I kinda like the modern dance more than other kind because it's my body, and I just have to listen to my body how it wants to move! I felt like I just discovered myself in the new way, and God turns me to another level of trusting, knowing him as a creator, and his creation as me.


Last Friday we performed this dance, and praise God that I got many good feed back as encouragement to remind me that I'm in the right place. I went off serval time with different emotion and questioning myself. Through this week what I've seen is that God is so strong in me as I'm very weak. All these matters weren't come from me, but it came from my God. Oh,,, the Scriptures that brought Jolene to teach us this piece is on Isaiah 40:28-31, so I felt right on the piece as I'm weary, and God gives such a powerful strength.


I do miss my home, my friends, my favorite places and movies!!! Last week was hard because I was down too much in homesick, and I couldn't sense how God desired to comfort me, so I went out of the base with word that kept repeating in my mind "it's ok". I cried, not too hard, and I had such a wonderful time with God out in the cold, but I love that time so much. I've learned to lean on him and to look to him. Then I had a new friend from DTS took be out for ice-cream, my favorite thing ever!


Another thing that I must mention about, coz I'm not sure when I'll do my blog agian, is that my future. I wanna do the School Of Worship, and there are serval thing that I must consider. Montana is great, but I'm not sure if I'll be alright with the winter for another year, and the School Of Worship in Thailand is starting right away after my School Of Dance Studies over. I really want to take a month off to not do any thing because this school make me work so hard, and I'll miss the dancing so much if I'll be in another school for 6 months. So I'm praying and listening to God what he wants me to do.


Alright, must go now.

Hey everyone,

Thanks so much for having been reading my journal on the page. I haven't update it such a long time, for I really want to write down an impact story to my life, but I believe there will be many story that push me to write down into words here in next 6 months.

I helped out in the Smoothies Shop near by the Mae Fa Luang University in July after the DTS was over. God revealed my personal issue in my hardship time when I wasn't accepted in the way I am at that time from my close friend. I'd been trying so hard to make people accept me,and I lost my own self sometimes. When my close friend denied me, I started to look to God and make decision on helping out at the shop. In meantime, I did learn about my freedom in Christ, and I knew that God wants me to be happy not in pain of who I am.Anyway, I had such a beautiful time there with all relationship from people that God put into my life.

Switch gear down to Bangkok in August a bit, I was glad to see my friends around. After awhile I went back home to visit my family and friends who work in Tsunami area. My sister has been in trouble with the school a lot because she skip the school, and hung out with guy. When I spent time with her in last 3 weeks, I found out that she deeply wants to have friend. She is teenager, and she wants someone who understand her need and to guide her what good to do, but she chose a wrong friend to follow. To be honest, I was give up with my sister many time,and I thought that my parents deserve all kind of fruits which happen because of lacking descipline. God turned me to see that it wasn't only my parents fault, but it was work of my enemies as well. Lairs has been seeded in my sister mind, and it's bearing such a bad fruit right now. So I must pray for my sister and still love her beacause God loves her so much, too. It causes me to cry when I saw my mom was hopeless when she didn't know where my sister is in each time as the school called. It produces division among my family when each one of them turn their back on each other, so God taught me to move in the opposite spirit. My brothers and sisters in Christ, I can't fight in this battle alone, so please pray and fight with me for my family that they will become family in Christ.

I'm going to leave Thailand in September 6, which is very soon. This is a big step for me to take as I have to leave all problems behind and to trust that God is in control.As a vision in my heart will become true, enemies try to put me down badly. I'm struggling in many area, so I need lots of prayers that I'll overcome my own selfishness and have same characters of Jesus Christ. I believe God never left me out in the dark that he won't do anything else to save me. I'm praying for my life will be leading by Holy Spirit so that the fruits of Holy Spirit will be within me for his glory and his Kingdom.

Season of my life is changing now, and I'm ready to jump in with God! May his goodness will be known, and people will glorify of his name. Amen!

Life has been so tough at the moment which brings me to the point of giving up. Since I've staffing DTS school up in ChiangRai, I've learned so much through people and situations. I used to think it could be easy to hang out with people and make friend with them. The time I'm working with people can be time of getting to know myself better. I've found I'm very strong will person, and it takes risk for people to reach to me. Grief inside of my heart keeps pouring out because of myselfishness, and I broke down manytime when I face with it. God gave such a great friend, Mae, coz she opened my eyes to see that friend is not just how good I am, but it's about love purely from God. She is going to love me as I am not just because I'm mature person and I did good in everything. The real love which I've touched right now helps me to look to God much better, for there is a hole in me that I need someone to fill me up, and God reveals himself through my friend.



I'm used to have only friendship with people,but I haven't done to the part of partnership to accomplish some tasks together, and in this DTS I was practicing on those stuff. Yep, when it was hard, I was ready to quite, and run away, but what is in God's heart was different. He wants to see me grow through this hardship time. He wants to bring me closer to my friend and work out our relationship in the better way. I was hopeless to deal with myself, I felt I'm a jerk and I'm nobody to anyone. God met in the midst of my self-rejection, and I'm releasing to the bondage that I haven't relized before. God is good always! I understood myself where I'm at better. I can reach to other easily because these self rejection couldn't limit me in God's ministry. I'm standing up to fight with it, and God is my side.

What zup,

Time flies so fast, life runs so slow. I felt like I don't have much time to process what's happening in me, but what I know is that I'm going to travel to Pattaya with my team and stay there for 5 weeks.

I'm struggling in my own insecure that I care so much of others' thinking. I don't have much confident to do something, and I always ask myself if I did good enough. Sometimes I went to someone and talked about the stuff that I was wrong, but no one cares about it. Anyway, I'm learning to let it go and to keep my eyes on to Jesus. Jesus didn't please himself, but he chose to please his people, and I'm practicing to support others and to care for them more than myself. An excuse I love to use is that I'm a kind of introverted person, so I like to isolate myself and can't get into deep relationship with anyone. Now I learn to be balance, and I sense God honors what I'm willing to do.

I'm exciting to go back down in Central area coz I miss my crew so much. I have appiontment of visa interview on June 1, in Bangkok, so I'm going to see my dearest friend as well. Praise God, I'm exciting what he is doing in my life, but at the same time I'm controlling myself to make today as the best day for him.

Blessings,

Kate

Hey,I've been busy so much after the first mini-outreach finished because I'm bad to organize and keep following my schedule.I love my life in the DTS which is about fellowship, building up each other with love and all the teaching through speakers & God's revealation. Last month we went out to HuaNamRin village, and our works were laying sement, digging dirt, pulling down the old Church and moving stuff around in the Church. It was a great experience to all of us in the team, but I did miss my dad as we used to work together for our new house, but at this time I had much joy because we worked in a team of Christ. Moreover, God gave us a specific thing to pray about, and we were amazed of God's faithfulness. I can say that we did a geart job for the village, and I love each one of my team because everyone laid down their own right to make team as a team.

I relized how much I've been allowing lairs live in my mind such a long time, since we learned about sin & repentance. My past, my rejection root with my mom effected me badly in the past 23 yrs, so when God confornted me about my attitude of my hearts and how I responded to my mom in the wrong way because of my painful emotionals, I came to the point of confess and ask for forgiveness from the Lord. The most powerful word I've not heard before is "I forgive you,my daughter", which came from God right after I confessed my sin and bitterness. God is great to me always.

I got more confirmation from the Lord about his purpose of my life, and I'm amazed of my Christianility life in the last 6 yrs. God has put me in the place to prepare the way of other people to come and reap. God is going to use my character to bring none-Christain to know about Christianility, so I'm really exciting to jump in the challenging way and make the way for the greater people to come. I love to be a pioneer, and there is a time for my life to be at some place for a while, but I believe that I will be in some places in long term as well. I'm happy with my life now to find new thing to do and enjoy my single life.

Only few day left that we will go out for a great outreach which we don't have any plan set up before hand, and we are going to lean on God totally!! I'm so exciting to jump on,and I must stand firm in God's word so that I will experience him differently. Hope to post up my journey of the next outreach soon!

It's hard to believe that I'm still alive!! ;0 . . . . . I have no clue where my energy came from since I came back from Bangkok. My life was challenged to stand and take up more responsibilities as Melissa couldn't be with us any more. It was my hard time,for I sensed the same feeling of my friend dying in my DTS. I didn't get much time to fight myself, but I had to head out to get all thing done for the school. Anyway, the school already started almost 2 weeks.

I began to understand more of God's revealation in both prayers and worship. Last week all of us learned about prayer life, and this week is our worship week. I must confess that I've longed to meet with Hudson family so much. I met them in Bangkok last Christmas, but I do miss them and I feel home as they are here. I can't understand myself well enough because I felt that everything is changing there, and there is no place for me to go back, and I didn't feel get along with any team. I left Bangkok so long, but I do miss my friends and other families down there. I almost cry everytime when I get emails and phone calls from them.But last Christmas down in Bangkok, I dealt too much with my emotion. Hudson family has only 1 day left with us in the school, and I'm going to miss them so much. All teaching that they gave are a confirmation to my future.But only God has a permanent plan to me, I'm seeking it.

Tonight was good night to me, for we had a great worship. I had a good time with my God really that I opened to him and touched his love. Only thing I can offer is my heart, since I've been giving my heart into lots of thing. I miss my family down in Phangnga as well because this school is kinda family to me, and I love to be around the students. There are challengings, problems and thing I have to deal with, but God extends his grace for me to step out without fear. I'm arising to worship God, and I love to have freedom on worshiping God like tonight. God is great!! He is so faithful, for he knows how much need I have. Praise God!

This pic is for Melissa, one of our staff who is going to go back home in the end of this month. I love her, I want to get to know her more. I love to work with her, and I believe that one day we will meet each other again. God bless you, my dear friend!

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year to all of you!! Let us celebrate the Birthday of our Lord,Jesus Christ. May all of you have a wonderful time while you are spending time with him personally. May our new year will be joyful year of salvation, love, kind, mercy and His faithfulness. We hope and pray that all of the world will sing in the same voice "Hallelujah to the Lamb of God"

Hey,

Well, I'm doing very good here. There are tons of thing I need to learn from God in this time. There are some teaching in the practical way to take and people's lives to learn from. Moreover, we have so much projects to work on, but I do have much fun to do my job, the creative thing!!

It was scare me when we were learning about the prayer life of leader, for there is only 0.15% of the time when we pray to our God, but we do spend most of our time in activities. What can work in our lives better between prayers and activities? Yep, absolutely, I have to come back to God again to learn how to pray from his heart for his people and his work to be done. The more we are up in the leader position, the more we have manything to deal with and to work on, that means we have less in prayer time. Right now I have to confess that I have really a bit of time to spend with God, too. Oh... poor children of God!! (I meaned myself)

The weather is so good now, I enjoy with it. God keeps speaking to me with his love to not make me discourage on my life. Sometimes,I do care so much about who I am, and I just pity on myself.. But now I learn to stand firm in God, no matter how much I have to be alone, but God is my best friend. Only God should be enough to make me work out of my relationship with other.

The theme of the school is "Rise & Worship", I felt like I need to rise up from my past, my hardship and my own struggling, for it's time to rise up and worship my God with my whole heart. God is great all the time. And worship is the key that I can pour my heart into his presence so that I won't be alone in this earth anymore.

Everything of mine is belonging to God.

This is a story of one girl who was born in a five daughters family. She thought she can be strong like a guy to make her dad happy and to take care her sisters well. So many time she acts out without thinking that she is a girl. Badly, she didn't care about her own nationality, for she doesn't want to be a tender girl. Yep, until she came to Christ, she still holding her pride so tight. Sadly, this girl is ending up her faith by making people stumble on her behaviours.

Can't believe that person is me!! I'm a prideful person that I just care for myself. I allow myself to be the way I wanna be. In the past over 5 yrs,I didn't care much if anybody told me to stop acting like a kid or tom-boy girl. I know I'm not a tom-boy girl, but people can tell immediately what my past was about. Moreover I didn't respect to my nationality. God has his own reason to create me as a Thai girl, but it's hard for me to accept this truth. I don't want to be a girlie person. Then many people came to be with a humble heart to tell me what my big blind spot is.

God really spoke to me if I do care about the body of Christ,and my body isn't belonged to me beacause it's a temple of God,so this is a big changing I need to take on. I'm coming to the point that I don't know how I can be changed. But I need him the most during this time of changing. It's hurtful inside, but I believe I'll be healed, and I'll be able to live my life in God's love more and more. Everyday I must put my old clothes away so that God can put a new one on me.

I have to prove myself by staffing the DTS school. Please be with me in prayers while I'm praying that I'll have a right heart after God, a right-positive mind and action in this big training. May God will be glorified through my life.

"Jesus traveled through all the cities and villages of that area, teaching in the synagogues and announcing the Good News about the Kingdom. And wherever he went, he healed people of every sort of disease and illness. He felt great pity for the crowds that came, because their problems were so great and they didn't know where to go for help. They were like sheep without a shepherd. He said to his disciples, "The harvest is so great, but the workers are so few. So pray to the Lord who is in charge of the harvest; ask him to send out more workers for his fields." Matthew 9:35-38

I was overwhelmed by the compassion of Jesus, while we were reading this passage last week. I felt that his heart is crying for people in this area. They are like sheeps who have no shepherd, and they are listening to each other, following each other to find the safe place for themselves. They are panic when the trouble comes, and they have no idea how to rest their souls. However, they still can't hear their shepherd's voice calling them to a safe place where their souls are lifted in love. We keep asking God for more worker of God to come as a sheep to follow Jesus' voice so that other sheeps will see and follow Jesus like that worker do. The worker who has compassion like Jesus and heal people of every sort of disease and illness like Jesus did in everywhere he went.

I found myself desperated for him. I'm nobody to anyone,but Jesus is the somebody to everyone. I'm easily lose a heart to be with people, but Jesus sit and eat with the sinners. I can't love some people who didn't showing love by their words, action or even in their thoughts there is no love for me,but Jesus forgave all of people who put him in trouble and made him to be hung on the cross. Honestly,I'm really tired, have no strength, lots of thing bother me everyday, but I do feel the grace of God falls like rain into my life. There are joy, peace, love from him for me. Thanksful to him as I'm here, I have a wonderful time of relationship with all kind of people. I'm learning more about the servant heart for Christ, not only people. When I'm smiling, there is God who is smiling with me. When I'm crying, there is Jesus who is crying and praying for me with an understand and a broken heart. When I'm lonely, there is Jesus who comforts me. When I'm stubborn to do everything by my own way, there is a loving and kind father in heaven who corrects my wrong attitudes, and he is patient to see me growing up in each part of my life. When I think there is nobody around me, there is the one who draws lots of friends to me and make me happy through the fellowship & encouragements. Anyway, I'm nobody!!! But God does care for me,in every part of me. Praise God for his wonderful job.

"Lord, thanks so much that you are real to me. I pray for all of my sisters and broher in Christ will see you are real for each one of them as well. I'm asking for your guidance, please light the way for each one of us. For we are willing to take up our cross and follow you, here we are!! Use us, teach us, be with us, show us how to heal people from every sort of disease and illness. Not by our might, but by your power Lord, I pray for your power to drive us in the place you want us to be. I pray for your truth will be laid deep in our hearts and lives. We'll be free by your truth, and freely to help others. May your kingdom establish in this earth like in heaven, Amen."

Blessings & love,
Kate

'This same Good News that came to you is going out all over the world. It is changing lives everywhere, just as it changed yours.

Colossians 1:6, NLT'

Hey,

=) =) Wow.. I would say God is so great!!! Today I have been praising God for many times becauseI'm blessed through his ministry here. Yesterday after I shared about gospel to a couple Thai girl, I got this scriptures to encourage me again. This Good news has been changing my life everyday, and now I have more faith to keep sharing it to people around here so that their lives will change like mine. These two ladies are interesting to know who God really is. Thank you to all of you that you joined in this ministry through prayers, encouragements and all kind of support.

Let me tell you what going on with the accident issues from last couple week. Praise God because everything went well, our staff already left Thailand to England. The training is going to start on Monday, so I guess I'm going to be a busy girl by then. Right now my role is about administrative and accounting, and I'm hoping to get to know Thai students as well. I have much fun to work here, and I believe that God's calling Thai into his Kingdom more and more.

Please keep praying for people here when they hear the truth of God, it'll grow deep in their heart. I'm just his jar to be where he wants me to be and help people whom he wants to help. However, I have learned how to obey him and be a blessing to the needy. But I'm really blessed through all of his works. It's so wonderful.

May you have a wonderful time with our Lord Jesus Christ, too. Let us celebration because the salvation is coming to other brothers and sisters like in heaven. May his name is lifting up on high.

Blessings & Love
Kate