What has been in my heart recently is stiring up in me to reach out to the lost....And I kinda question myself how I reach to them?

Today I experience a great confusion of lies that people have heard and believed, and I just curious what I suppose to do.. There is an uncle who sits next to the YWAM office everyday, for his business takes place underneath YWAM building. Also, today was group came in our Soi to give away some tracks that I don't know what is about. I walked in today, and I felt like God challenges me to spend time talking to this uncle whom I greet him everytime I see him. So I walked in, and he said he got something to give it to me. When I checked out the tracks, I'm pretty sure that it's not about Christianity, but it's similar, too. I asked some questions, and I found out that uncle read through it already. So I told him to not believe in it, but he asked some questions about Christ. I told him that Jesus is the only way to go to heaven, and he told me different story about Christ... He doesn't believe that there is God in this universe, and he mess up the story of Christ to be someone else that I never heard about.. It hurts because he doesn't know the truth, and I don't know where he got this information from. The enemies works so hard to lie to him, and his eyes, ear, mind, and heart are completely shut for the truth, for he hold what he knew as the truth.

One thing I found out in my relationship with God is that God loves him still.. I felt just a glimpe of his grieve, but his love never grown weary for that uncle.. When I came in my office and pray for this uncle.. My mind was full of ways to avoid this uncle since he didn't want to believe what I believe, and I thought there is no business to deal with him..But God turns my thought upside down, for he wants me to keep loving with guy and give him help anytime that I have opportunity..My respond to God is about loving this man, and I have to hold on to God to reveal his truth to me so that I can live it out. . . . . . . I'm thankful to God that he is with me, and he kindly show me how to walk in this situation.. Here what I wanna share and remind myself of how deep of my Father love..

The Narrow Gate to HEAVEN. . . .

I liked the truth of Luke 19:1-10, story of Jesus and Zacchaeus. Maybe many people have read this passages, and God reveals in different thing, and God revealed me whose heart that he is looking for. Several months in Montana, I completely trust and have faith in God, but I'm lacking of the knowledge of God. In the other hand, I just didn't give my time to God for getting to know him better. Zacchaeus' heart was about to see Jesus, and he climbed up on the tree because he was seeking Jesus. God is faithful of who he is, so Jesus came to Zacchaeus, and he even more surprised Zacchaeus for going to Zacchaeus' house. Then I've seen how soft of Zacchaeus' heart when Jesus came to him as a friend who doesn't care what a sinner he is, so he repented with the action of faith, and Jesus revealed his love and salvation to him. I hope that I would be like Zacchaeus,for I quickly turn to God many times when I have sin, but it was because I felt guilty. At this time what I've learned through this passage is that God requires me a heart of hunger to see Jesus personally so that he would make me to absolutely repentant.

I listened to a song calls "Mighty to save" by Hillsongs church in Aus, and I love the word "Author of Salvation".. . . . . How wonderful that I have Jesus as a Author of Salvation who seeks for me, and who will lead me to worship him. I remembered myself dance in worship time for a couple time, and before I got to do that I refused to dance because I knew that I didn't have a right attitude. But God did break through, so I just love for being there and dance freely in worship for him. Because I know that he is worthy for me to be obey him and glorify his name... This is my love for him, my God who accept my messyness, and he never turned away from me, when I call for him. He is bigger than I can think of, and his imaginations are incredible.






This is a couple from my Chicago trip... I like them so much because they have been showing me a Jesus' heart for his people. I miss them so much =) By the way, I miss all of people back in Thailand and other places as well. I used to pity on myself of my personal issue, and I also can't make any relationship even deeper with anyone. This is the cost I have to pay, and through this moment I do believe God prepares me for something ahead. I know that I never been alone, but sometimes I need people whom I knew and trust. . Now I'm tired of building trust in new people whom I'm going to leave them again. Anyway, this is how I feel. . . . and I hope that I'll get over it sometimes.